While i don't call myself Christian, I do want to believe in God and the Bible and hell I wouldn't mind being called a bible thumper or even going as far as believing the world is literally flat and rain comes down through trapdoors in a very solid sky. But I've been through all every variation of belief, even to that extreme, and never did it make happy. I just became so ignorant and stubborn in my own beliefs that I didn't care if I was unhappy. And I certianly didn't come any closer to God than when I was an athiest. I don't what to beliueve any more. I just go by what I know and I know Christianity never made me happy. Of course, it's no fault of Christianity, right? It never is. It's always because either I'm believing "hard enough" or Satan's plagueing my mind. Yup.
